There's a house across the river, but alas. I cannot swim
And a garden of such beauty that the flowers seem to grin
There's a house across the river, but alas, I cannot swim
I'll live my life regretting that I never jumped in
There's a boy across the river with short black curly hair
He wants to be my lover and I want to be his peer
There's a boy across the river but alas, I cannot swim
And I never will get to put my arms around him
There's a life across the river that was meant for me
Instead I live my life in constant misery
There's a life across the river but I do not see
Why I should please those that will never be pleased
There is gold across the river but I don't want none
Gold is fleeting, gold is fickle, gold is fun
There is gold across the river but I don't want none
I would rather be dry than held up by a golden gun
Saying work more, earn more, live more
Have more fun
The big-sized fonts show my feelings at the moment. Laura Marling speaks my heart out.
This is a very nice fan-vid dedicated to Mary Ingalls, my favourite character from the Series (and the books, but in this video there are only pictures of Mary from the TV Series) Little House on The Prairie (1974-1983). The series was played in Indonesia during the early 90's on TVRI and later on TPI.
When I was a child, I was addicted to watching the series. Now I hardly remember the storyline. LOL.
I wish I was a little older. I wish I was born earlier and enjoyed my childhood at the time the series and the books were still on the hype. Now people only enjoy terrible stuff. By the way, Melissa Sue Anderson was perfectly beautiful. She's still beautiful, of course. But this Mary-character brought up the most beautiful side of her.
Aaaah, those Mary's blue eyes. I really miss watching this series. :'(
This is my tribute to the late President of Poland, his wife, his family, the other victims in the plane crash, and surely to the Polish people.
The Presence of Existence: An Ode to Lech Kaczynski
By: Rima Muryantina
The presence of my existence hardly knows thee,
Until the presence of an existence, which most people associate as "free."
Your sudden unexpected freedom has caused a sudden unexpected grief,
Succeeded by sudden expected prayers, I believe.
Dear sir, I still hardly know thee,
But thy presence of existence sent my mind a great deal of philosophy,
That the world is a far-ranging dimension compared to the word "me."
Goodbye Mr. President. I hardly know you, but may God be with you.
"I've never lived. I died a few times."
Harold (Harold and Maude)
Let's be honest. I know that my family seems to be proud of me (or they "try" to be proud of me) and some of my friends say that I'm a lucky person and some of juniors say that I'm their role models (or maybe they're just trying to cheer me up) . But now I'm gonna tell you what I'm feeling about myself.
Truthfully, I feel ugly.
Mentally and physically.
Most of the time.
I've always felt ugly since I was a child. Up until now.
I never really fit in anywhere. In any parts of society. I've always been pretending. Just pretending that I fit in. Sometimes pretending could make me safe from the judgment of the society. But most of time it's just torturing. I know that I cannot force myself to please everyone everyday.
But when I'm not pretending, people will see the true ugliness of myself. I'm the kind of girl you would love to kill at the first place if you know what I'm feeling or what I'm thinking.
I'm a monster. Physically and mentally. I'm trying to be nice to human beings just because God told me to do so. Just because they're my kind, my species. Just for the sake of humanity.
Other than that, I'm an evildoer. I cannot do anything nice, anything proper, anything normal.
I'm ugly, I'm evil, I'm a sinner, I'm a moron.
If you know me deep inside, you would love to burn me to hell.
But you don't know. Because I'm trying my best to be invisible so that my evil self won't hurt you.
So let's just keep it all this way. Hidden. Pretending everything is fine. It's better this way....
Things I'm Currently Addicted to:
1. Listening to the Live from the Basement version of Radiohead's - Optimistic (I can't stop it)
2. Reading Mafalda (I even use one of the dialogues from the comic for Discourse Analysis Mid Term Test)
3. Watching the trailer of "Keeping Mum" (2005) starring Maggie Smith & Rowan Atkinson. This movie is awesome. Unfortunately, it's way too underrated.
4. Bonnie Wright pictures (esp. the ones resemble Ginny Weasley. I love this character. Now I even like Ginny more than Luna... But don't get me wrong. I also love Bonnie. She made the character even more fabulous)
5. Kaya Scodelario (but I don't like Skins. I only like Kaya. hahahaha)
Okay, I'm supposed to stop all of these addictions and focus on my work. And on my study objective. when will I finish it anyway? I just don't get the feeling... yet. :(
Sometimes I could be such a procrastinator...
"Luna has told me all about you, young lady. You are, I gather, not unintelligent, but painfully limited, narrow, close-minded."
- Xenophilius Lovegood (Luna Lovegood's father) to Hermione Granger -
Well, for people who have learned philosophy, you probably know that there is always a never-ending war between two general perspectives of truth: empiricism vs. rationalism.
In short, rationalists believes that something is right if it rationally makes sense, even if you don't have any evidence to prove it. Meanwhile, empiricists believe that something is right if you have a living proof in reality (not only in your mind). In other words, one has its center in your rationale and the other has its center in the five senses (anything you can see, smell, touch, taste, and hear).
In the past, rationalism was popular in France while empiricism was popular in England.
....... No wonder there's always a sense of competition between the two countries.
This has always been problematic. In some cases, rationalism is not always right. For example, in English Grammar: rationally, the correct form is "you weren't sad" instead of "you wasn't sad." But in fact, there's in an evidence that there was a native speaker who said, "You said you wasn't sad to see her go." (That native speaker was Alex Turner from Arctic Monkeys when he sang the song "Bigger Boys & Stolen Sweethearts"). The rational rules made by the native speakers was destroyed by the native speakers themselves.
So in that case, rationalism is proven wrong.
However, there are many cases in which rationalism wins over empiricism. Take Galileo Galilei as an example. He was executed because he rationally initiated the idea that the earth is round, and he even rationally supported Copernicus' idea that the sun is the center of the universe. At that time, he couldn't find a living proof to strengthen his arguments.
Years later, when people have discovered many things, when people could take a picture of the earth and the solar system, Galileo and Copernicus' ideas were proven right. Empiricism was proven really limited due to humans' incapability of sensing something really faraway from them.
So in this case, empiricism lost the battle.
Now, what does it have to do with Hermione Granger and Luna Lovegood?
Well, as you know, both of these smart girls hardly get along in terms of ideology. Ms. Granger called Ms. Lovegood as "Loonie" Lovegood because she believes in some magical creatures that can't be seen by ordinary wizards/witches. Ms. Lovegood, on the other hand, considered Ms. Granger as "narrow minded."
I think Ms. Granger is an example of a conservative empiricist and Ms. Lovegood is an example of an eccentric rationalist.
Well, in the Harry Potter series, Ms. Lovegood was proven right because finally Mr. Potter could see the "invisible" creatures. It only takes some different perspective for Mr. Potter to be able to see them. *well, at least that's what J.K. Rowling tried to say. I think somehow she supports Luna over Hermione.
For me, I used to be the loyal defender of Hermione Granger. The way she studies, the way she resolves problems, the way she answers questions in the class.... they all remind me of myself, when I was in highschool. And when I was a Maba. I always want the evidence first before believing in something (except when it comes to my God and my religion, I prefer to use my faith and my rationale in believing it).
However, lately, after 3.5 years studying Humanities (actually, I'm not sure whether it has anything to do with this), I think there's a "Luna" that was born in me. When I meet some eccentric people from my faculty, with their various different kinds of point of view, I feel like I could think much wilder than I used to. Those people have taught me to see "beyond" what I see. I'm not saying that I don't believe in a living proof. I'm just saying that this "Luna-syndrome" has made me realized that there are things that cannot be proven empirically or even explained rationally. There are things beyond what you see, as Rafiki, the wise monkey from the Lion King once said.
And I can't explain it further in a more ordinary living written words. You know, it's rationalism. Hahaha.